Thursday, May 6, 2010

I'm still at it

Week 11...

For the past 2 weeks.. I'd weigh myself in the morning (they say that's the best time to do it) and would come out with the same results... NO POUNDS LOST.

So this week.. week 11.. I was rather surprised to see my weight at this:

Well... I'LL TAKE IT!!

Now.. let me give it to you straight.. I've cheated & I've lazied around A LOT for the past 2 weeks.

Hence the "No weight lost" posts.

But this week, I went to the gym Monday.. did 40minutes on elliptical & 20 minutes on the treadmill.

And Wednesday I did 40 minutes on the elliptical. And I've been getting back on track with my diet.

I'm not saying it's easy. IT'S NOT! I've been stuck on a constant ice cream craving for the past couple weeks.. giving in and going to Sonic. Indulging in dangerous pleasures.. only to pay for it on down the line.

And let me tell you.. after getting back to the gym & cutting out the bad food.. I've been feeling great!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

I have not forgotten

It seems the only thing I post about on here is how much I cheat.

Well.. this week is no different.

Another week & no pound lost.

Good thing?

I suppose it could be I didn't gain any weight.

Last week, I only went to the gym once.

So far this week.. I've been Monday & Tuesday.

Last night I didn't go & I had ice cream.

Ugh.. I'm finding it hard not to indulge in such empty calories. But hey, that's the fat girl fighting to stay fat. I've only known fat, so maybe somewhere deep within my crazy little brain.. I want to stay fat.

I said fat a lot in that paragraph.

Anyways.. It's 6:36am.. I just got off work and I REALLY would like to go to the gym now.. AND try to go later this evening.. we'll see how that goes.

Friday, April 23, 2010

I hath fallen of thy wagon

OH GOD I FEEL HORRIBLE.

I feel so guilty, like I've sinned.. eating foods I shouldn't be eating.. not exercising hardly at all this week.

And to top things off.. I didn't lose A SINGLE POUND last week.

BLERG!!

I have no excuses really.. but this entire week has been bad. I've ate Sonic ice cream twice.. Today I had pizza & Taco Bell.

I haven't got to work out but once this week.. And I could blame that on my crazy work schedule, but really the blame's all on me.

BLAH BLAH BLAH

Ok Edith. It's time to nut up or shut up. Monday is the day I jump back on that wagon.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Oh how the time flies by

It's been 2 MONTHS since embarking on this weight loss adventure.

2 MONTHS AGO I was here:THIS MORNING I was here:
Again.. sorry for the sock.. & dirty floor.

BUT HOLY CRAP BATMAN.

2 months & 10.5 pounds later. And this includes cheating days.

And I feel great. I've been exercising, eating healthy.. cutting out sugary sodas & fast foods.. and not to mention the boost in self-esteem from people telling me how great I look.

And even though it took 2 months.. those 2 months have seemed to fly on by.

So yes.. losing weight takes time & patience, but seriously.. it's not like you're wasting time doing something unproductive.

Perhaps the 10 pounds I've lost.. added 10 years onto my life.

Now, before I go.. let's talk about yesterday (Tuesday) & today (Wednesday).

My mother was down yesterday. We walked up & down Beale Street. Stopped at Superior & I ate this:
Yom Yom.

It was amazing. AND HORRIBLY BAD FOR ME.

But never fear.. We walked a good 2 miles that day so it's not like I ate the BBQ Nachos then laid around all day, waiting for the fat to travel to my ass and thighs. OH NO.

Today we ate Sushi. I had 2 Volcano rolls. It was FABULOUS. Today we didn't do much walking around.. actually.. we didn't walk around at all. But I'll be back in the gym tomorrow (Thursday) for a full hour... and possibly longer.. workout session.

Well. That is all.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Take THAT Obesity

So after my two cheat days.. IN A ROW.. I did my best to make up for such travesty.

Thursday I went to the gym for an ENTIRE HOUR. Actually, I believe it was for an hour and 10 minutes. I did 40 minutes on the elliptical & 30 Minutes on the treadmill. I don't know the exact calorie count burned, but it was close to 500 calories total.

Friday was the same. 40 minutes on the elliptical & 25 minutes on the treadmill.

I have pics to prove it (Thursday's pictures are unattainable due to me upgrading to the iPhone)

Elliptical:

Treadmill:
And the best feeling in the world is when other people tell you how great you look & how proud they are of you. Even though results aren't instant, the hardwork pays off eventually.

Now it's a matter of keeping up that hardwork & keeping on track.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Temporary satisfaction with lasting results

Is cheating ever good? I mean cheating in relationships normally results in the end of the relationship. So why should cheating on diets be any different?

Cheating on diets typically have similar results-The end of the diet.

However, there are those rare cases, i.e. in relationships, when the cheating partner is forgiven. The couple works it out. And perhaps cheating makes the relationship stronger.

So in dieting, does cheating make you stronger?

I do not have the answer to that, but I can tell you, for the past couple days, I have cheated. I had an M&M blast from Sonic Tuesday & a Reese's blast from Sonic Today (Wednesday).

Now, I could blame mother nature and my monthly gift for the sweet cravings. But no one likes excuses.

Here's my weekly weigh-in results. This is from 10am today (Wednesday), the morning after the first Sonic blast and the morning of the second Sonic blast.

Down another pound!

And please excuse those monster calves. And the sock. And the plunger.

OH! And on top of cheating, I didn't go to the gym Tuesday or Today (Wednesday). I don't know about other women, but when I'm getting a visit from Aunt Floe, I don't want to do ANYTHING! Especially workout.

Oh, right, excuses. Nobody loves 'em, but we sure do allow them to move right in on our lives and settle in.

I think it's time to change up my diet. Perhaps I'm getting bored with what I'm eating. Or maybe I just wanted that temporary satisfaction of eating something with lasting results.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Still in it to win it

Hey!

So it's been a week. And I don't want you to think I've forgotten or fallen off the wagon. I just haven't had anything interesting to post about.

Here's my weekly weigh-in:
I'm down 1 pound since last week. A total of 8 pounds in the past 6 weeks. And even though that is a small amount, I'm feeling good. Eating healthier & exercising is like discovering a part of yourself that you never knew existed. I'm happy and rarely feel sluggish. I'm taking my time, easing myself into this healthier lifestyle and I think it's working out just fine.

Now, like I've said in previous posts, cheating is inevitable. And I did eat waffles Monday night. But it's okay, because the waffle mix is GONE now. I won't be tempted to make any more waffles because there is no waffle mix left to do so. whew!

Other than that set back, I didn't do any other cheating. And I went to the gym 4 days last week.

So far this week has been good, but of course, it could always be better.

Monday I went to the gym:
It was a decent workout session.. not my best but it'll do just fine. Now Monday I also got a new tattoo:
So my workout for Tuesday was limited to the treadmill... I did do 45 minutes, a little over 2 miles.. & burned about 300 Calories.

I had to limit my exercise so I wouldn't agitate the tattoo.

Well, that's all folks.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I blame the waffles

Okay.
So I'm only down half a pound from last week. And yes, that is better than losing nothing or gaining a half a pound or more.

I would like to put partial blame on the waffles. Oh those awful waffles. Amazingly good, but bad for you waffles.

I had the waffles Thursday & Friday night, but passed on a scrumptious cupcake Saturday. Good right?

Sunday was another bad day. I went to a friend's bridal shower. I ate a small piece of cake & a handful of chex mix.

Then about an hour or two after the shower, me & the bride to be, her fiance & one of their friends went out to eat Mexican food. I ate a chicken taco salad. I didn't eat it all. I'd say about 3/4 of it. And I also did not gorge myself on chips & salsa before hand. I had maybe 7 chips.

Best yet, I drank water with the meal.

So yes, Sunday was pretty bad, but take a look at my workout from Tuesday: It's my best workout yet. 3 miles, 40 minutes & 392 calories burned. I did go to the gym on Monday. 30 minutes worth of elliptical, but my phone didn't keep the picture I took so I don't remember the calories burned or distance.

My point is this: You see how rough the week was. Waffles, cake, chex mix, Mexican food. Plus my workout energy was low. But I didn't give up. I'm NOT giving up. I'm back on track with my workouts & diet. Because I've come this far in the past month, I cannot stop now. I have a ways to go, but why throw away the hard work for a measly day of weakness? After I've worked so hard? I'm a strong person, I have the willpower. I CAN DO THIS!

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Awful Waffles

Forgive me body, for I have sinned.

Thursday & Friday night I ate these:


But dear body, just so you know, I did go to the gym Thursday before partaking in such delightful indulgences:


And I know what you're thinking: "What about Friday?"


Well, body, unfortunately I did not make it to the gym on Friday.


And body... I'm sorry if this is a blow when you're already down, but.... I had Taco Bell again on Wednesday night.


Wait, wait, wait... calm down. I ate from the Fresco menu.


Okay, I know it's still not good, but I'm trying here.


Look, I resisted this today:


That's a HUGE cupcake. And I PASSED IT UP!

Body, I know my actions are unforgiveable, but I just want to let you know I care so much about you and I AM TRYING.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Ups & Downs

Well, it's been a month since starting this blog. A month since really focusing on weight loss.

A month ago I weighed 220.5 pounds.

Last week I had a variable weigh in, reading 215 when I first woke up, then 213 two hours later.

I assume the 215 was the correct weight because this morning my weight was:

Which is fine. If last week I weighed 215 & this week I'm down a pound, that's better than nothing. And I did have a rough week last week.

1 Month & 6.5 pounds is fine by me!

That's really all I had to update about.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

A panini here, A couple jello shots there, what tacos too?

Ok. This a rough week.

Not only did I have weak exercise sessions but let me tell you about my weekend.

Friday night for dinner I went to Taco Bell & got 3 fresco hard tacos.. The good thing, they're only 150 calories/each.. the bad thing, the sodium is out the roof.

Saturday I had a friend in town & for lunch we ate here:

And I got this:


It was sooooooo gooood. Called the French 101, this chicken panini has Feta, Roasted Tomato, Bacon, Spinach and Basil Aioli on a croissant.
I know, I know.. pretty bad but one good thing.. when asked if I wanted chips or fries with it, I said no. So it could have been worse.
And I'm calculating this amazingly delightful panini has around 700 calories in it.
If that's the case my calories for the day would have been right at 1500.
UNTIL...
I went out to celebrate a friend's birthday. I had 2 jello shots. The shots contained Tequila.
I'm sure those 2 shots brought my calorie count up to 1800 or more.
UGH.
But, like I've said before.. You've got to get back on track and today, I'm back to my diet.
And Monday... back to the gym!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Today was rough

So today is week 3 of my blog/weightloss adventure. Every week I'm going to *officially* weigh myself and document it on here.

3 weeks ago I weighed:This morning I weighed:
But wait... 2 hours later I weighed myself again:Hmm... Not sure how that happened BUT I'LL TAKE IT!

Okay.. So I didn't go to the gym on Tuesday because I did heavy, heavy house cleaning. I rearranged, vacuumed, dusted, bent over, crawled on the floor.. whew it was a lot of work...

And not to mention the spontaneous dance party in the middle of my living room.

So I believe skipping the gym on Tuesday was mighty fine. I just need to make sure I go Thursday and hopefully Friday.

Anyways.. today at the gym was rough. I began to get extremely tired after just 10 minutes on the elliptical. But I did my best to stick with it and ended up going 30 minutes.


2 miles & 300 calories burned is not bad... but I can do better.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Goals, Cheating & Dreams of Alex

So after 5 days of my "Lady Visit," I'm back on track. Or back on the Elliptical.40 minutes, 2.75 miles & 389 calories burned.

And let me tell you something... I've been feeling great.

Even though I only worked out once last week (Tuesday), I kept to my diet. Well, for the most part. On Sunday, I ate 1 Krystal burger. It was 160 calories. And maybe like 5 or 6 fries with that. I'd say it totaled 200 calories. But I claimed that as my lunch for the day, so really, I think I came out for the day under my 1500 calories/day limit.

I've found having a goal helps when trying to lose weight.

My ultimate goal is to show up at my 10 year high school reunion (1 1/2 years from now) looking better than I looked in high school.

Actually.. I already look better than I did in high school. But still, I want to show up and have everyone in the room turn all their eyes at me and whisper, "Wow, Look at Edith."

Another goal, and it's really just a silly fantasy of mine, is to show up in L.A. this summer when I go visit my best friend, looking like I belong there. I want to have a rocking body with a self-esteem to match.

And of course meet a hot celebrity, whom falls in love with me, and we live happily ever after.

Alexander Skarsgård meet me at the grove.

So aside from the Krystal's hamburger incident, this blog continues to be motivation for me. And even the Krystal's hamburger incident wasn't a big deal. As I told my friend, "When dieting, sometimes you've got to cheat."

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Slowly but surely, Ya'll

2 weeks and 3 1/2 pounds lighter.

I began this blog 2 weeks ago in hopes to keep me on track with my weight loss. Sort of an online diary, but for everyone to read. Duh, a blog.

Anyways, I feel very strong about this. I feel the blog is serving it's purpose. Keeping me focused to losing weight. All I want to do is succeed so I can come on here and write about it afterward.

Example: My Tuesday workout session on the ellipticalThis has been my best exercise session so far. 40 minutes. My second week in & I'm slowly becoming stronger in my aerobics. This is the kind of things I want to share with people. Who knows, maybe I'll inspire someone else one day.

Of course, not every day will be a success.

Friday the 26th thru Monday, March 1st.. I did not go to the gym.

But Monday I did have an intense dance session in the kitchen. SO EXHILARATING! Sometimes you've just got to blast that music and dance. Even if you're not a good dancer (like me).

And today... Well.. Mother Nature is paying me a visit...not in the workout mood. However, I did stick within my calorie allotment (1500). I even resisted that cookie at Subway.

2 weeks and going strong.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Me 2, Temptation 0

Okay, so I know all none of you want to know how my battle with Alcohol went last night. Well, I forfeited the event before it even took place.

Working the weekends (13 hour days w/hour break) I don't go out... AT ALL. But it was my friend Candi's birthday celebration, so around 9pm, I went over to her new house & socialized for two hours, then everyone headed to the bar for more partying.

At her house, everyone was drinking (yes, alcohol) and eating chips & dip, but I did neither. I ate a brown rice, turkey, vegetable meal beforehand. So I was full. And being I had to work the next day I didn't partake in any drinking. Of course my trying to lose weight was another reason not to jump on the drinking bandwagon.

I thought for sure I'd grab a drink at the bar, but upon arrival, I froze up, went into an awkward state. Everyone went up to the bar to grab their drink & it was so crowded up there, I stayed back in a less claustraphobic area.

And then I was that girl, standing around alone, with no one to talk to, because they were all up at the bar. I felt uncomfortable, like everyone was looking at me, wondering what the fat girl is doing here.

So I left.

Went home, went to bed.

I believe my lack of going out on the weekends has turned me into a socially awkward person. But that is just one more item on my list of self recreation that I'll need to work on.

Here's a good read: 10 Ways to Lose 10 Pounds

Friday, February 26, 2010

Oh the HUMANITY!

Seriously.



The torture I went through today.



Good Morning Memphis had Community Coffee on the show this morning. They brought all kinds of crazy good, but bad for you desserts.



See:



But I was a good girl. I did NOT eat any of the cheesecake, pie or other amazingly delicious looking desserts they brought in.

So you can either call me strong-willed or just plain DUMB.

Either way:
Me 1, Temptation 0

Next battle is tonight, when I go out to the bars. It'll be Me vs Alcohol.

The results revealed tomorrow (Saturday, February 27th, 2010)

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

A week and 2 pounds later

So when I started this blog last week I weighed:

This morning I weighed:
Losing two pounds a week is healthy. I'm not starving myself, I'm not over working myself. I'm going at a nice and steady pace so that way I keep on track.

I went to the gym today.. burned 335 calories on the elliptical. So far that's 4 out 6 days going to the gym since signing up (saturday & sundays are hard because I'm at work for 12 hours each day, well 13 hours but I get an hour break)

My life right now is about changes. My roommate/best friend moves to LA, the other roommate and I are in search of a new roommate, I'm promoted to producer of the 5am newscast for Good Morning Memphis.

With these changes, comes adjustments. Especially adjusting to my new schedule at work. I'll be working Monday-Friday 10pm-6am (Technically starting Sunday night at 10pm).

So I have to decide if I want to work out before I go in to work or after I'm done at 6 in the morning. Ideally I'd want to go beforehand so I can be energetic and awake throughout my work. Whereas going to the gym at 6 in the morning after my shift, I'll be ready to go to bed.

But it doesn't matter what I decide, as long as I'm keeping myself motivated and keeping temptations at bay.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Buffets are the devil and I am merely a sinner.

Confession.

I ate buffet at the Gold Strike Casino.

I know what you're thinking. Well really I don't, but if I were you, I'd be like "Girl, I thought you trying to lose weight?"

What had happened was.. I went to the casino with a friend, gambled, won some money, got 2 free buffets and ate.

The good news.. It could have been a lot worse. I'm actually rather proud of myself. On my plate was an egg roll, a spoonful of mac & cheese, 2 spoonfuls of some pasta dish, a spoonful of some pasta salad, three slices of turkey, and a roll. I ate everything except 1 1/2 pieces of turkey and the pasta salad.

Wait.. not quite done.. For dessert I ate 2 spoonfuls of banana budding & 2 1-inch sized custard filled eclairs.

SERIOUSLY I COULD HAVE DONE WORSE.

More good news: The same day as the casino.. I worked out at the gym & burned 342 calories on the elliptical.. & the only other thing I ate that day was a turkey sandwich and some popcorn.

To make up for my bad day yesterday.. I worked out today on the elliptical, burning 250 some calories and on top of that I painted 2 1/2 walls of a bedroom & helped carry a massive futon down some stairs.

Even though I fell victim to the evil buffet.. I'm back on track today. Back to my 1500 calorie diet.

Monday, February 22, 2010

It's Like a Vampire Yearning for Blood

The one thing about dieting fatties.. when other people eat good smelling bad food around them.. it's the same as waving around a bloody steak in front of a starving lion.

Okay, maybe that's a bit exaggerated, but seriously.. I've been at work so many times while trying to diet & someone walks in with McDonald's or Backyard Burger. That fast food smell of greased french fries and burger goodness lingers throughout the entire room, your stomach growling in response.

It's hard to resist.

And for some morbidly obese people, food is like a drug. You're constantly thinking about your next fix and how that fix will satisfy you, even if it's only for the moment. Same goes for fatties who go out to eat with their friends. It's the same as an alcoholic going into a bar. All the food choices, the temptations.

I don't have the answers. All I know.. if you're not motivated.. if you're not ready to lose weight.. then it's not going to happen.

You've got to be ready for a life change because let's face it, dieting & trying to lose weight is exactly that. You can't keep eating crappy food, living a sedentary life and expect a single pound to fall off.

And if you're depressed about how much you weigh, have a low self esteem, etc etc.. don't expect yourself to get better if you give up and don't do anything.

This is all my own opinion.. not professional of course.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Be prepared

If you're dieting.. it's good to be prepared.

Me, for example, I work 12 hour shifts on the weekend. So in the morning before work, I make sure to prepare my meals for the day. Otherwise, I'd be leaving work to go get fast food, hanging out at the vending machine or chomping on snacks people bring in. (Remember how I said in the news industry.. there's ALWAYS food?)

And really, the best way to stay full throughout the day is eat 5 meals. Don't *they* always say that? Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner & 2 snacks?

So this is what I do on my weekends:
On my way to work (9am), I drink my slimrite drink-190 calories , around 11am, eat a 100-calorie slimfast snack bar, around 1pm eat a sandwich with apples & peanut butter (2 tablespoons max), around 4pm/5pm drink the float-like, ensure/diet soda concoction-250 calories & loaded with vitamins. Around 6pm/7pm eat a lean cuisine meal (they are usually around 300-400 calories).

And I keep a bottle of water on hand, which I refill throughout the day. Of course, you can never get enough water.

It works for me but I'm not saying it'd work for you.

I've come to realize that if you're doing a diet you hate or you're tempted to cheat all the time, then it's not the right diet for you. If you have trouble, try taking it slow at first.. cutting out fast food meals, sodas, sweets. Can't cut them out completely? Try cutting back. Diets should be a lifestyle change. Not a tourcherous way of living.

Remember, I'm not expert. Just letting you know what I've experienced in my struggles with weight-loss.

BTW, I had planned to wake up and go to the gym before work this morning, but after my alarm went off at 6:30am and my throat was on fire, I decided it best not to.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Doing it to it

If I said I was going to do something, I'm going to do it. However 25% of the time I'll say I'll do it, then procrastinate for as long as possible before doing it.

I JOINED THE GYM. Calm down now.

*pauses for cheering to diminish*

Ok, so it's not like I've never been to a gym before. I had a 3 year membership to the French Riviera, which recently ended in September. Or not so recent.

ANYWAYS.. This morning I joined Fitness Premiere in Bartlett for $19.95 a month. No Contract.

I even worked out after signing up.

Yep. 2 miles in 40 minutes and 40 seconds. Is that good? Who cares, at least I'm doing it to it.
Time for sleep!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

No gym? No problem.

If you can't sign up for a gym, (really there should be no reason not to, most gyms are cheap, like the one I'm singing up for is only $20 a month) then try doing things around the house/apartment to burn those calories.

Okay, I've got a confession..

I did not sign up for my gym today, again I have no reason, but don't worry I WILL do it!

So what did I do today? Well after sleeping until 2pm, (hey when you work a 10am-6am shift, it's excused) I made myself a turkey sandwich and kettle popcorn (I know, I know, the popcorn.. not so healthy) watched some TV, got on the internet, did some laundry, wrote some more pages in the fictional book I'm writing.

All that took about 4 hours.

Now (6:30/7pm) I just finished preparing a Campbells soup chicken meal (chicken breast, brown rice, cream of chicken soup, vegetable mix, spices of your choice) and while I was preparing it.. I blasted Pandora.com and danced my big 'ole but off. Dance hardcore and you're burning those calories!

Like yesterday, when I cleaned house.. another calorie burner.

It's the little things that add up. Now I'm not saying fore go the gym.. by all means GO! Really I should be giving myself this advice. But what I AM saying is until you get there.. find other activities to help you work up a sweat.

BTW, I'm no expert.. just a girl trying to lose weight.

The Temptations of Fatties

So day one of my new approach to life was like a day in my old approach to life.

After starting said blog, I hit the bed to nap for three hours. After waking, I proceeded to clean out the departing roommate's room. Which took at least four hours.

Whoa boy did that give me a workout. I moved two heavy futon mattresses from upstairs to downstairs, vacuumed, then took two carloads full of trash to the dumpsters. I'm sure I went up and down the stairs (2 flights) 20 times.

What did I eat for the day? Well thank you for not asking.

I drank a slim rite, ate a slim fast snack bar (100 calories), drank a float flavored concoction of soda (diet, caffeine free Mountain Dew) & Ensure (Something Fox 13 Anchor Mearl Purvis showed me) and ate a leftover chicken BBQ meal (chicken, BBQ sauce, 3-pepper mixture, pineapple), the departing roommate made.

I also met with a potential roommate to takeover departing roommate's room and after that I watched some TV then took another nap.

All to wake up and go to work at 10pm to produce the 5am newscast on Good Morning Memphis.

This schedule change is bound to change up my eating, so for overnight snacking I brought apples & peanut butter, a handful of mixed nuts, a can of diet, caffeine free Mountain Dew & on my way home at 6:30am, I drank another one of these.

Now, one thing about the news industry.. there's always food. SOMEBODY ALWAYS BRINGS FOOD. This is a test. A show of willpower for the morbidly obese.

I'm glad to say them donuts right there.. did NOT succeed in luring me to their chocolaty goodness.

Now that's cleared up.. I have some more sleeping to do.

Hey, today, I'm most definitely joining the gym. I'M GOING TO DO IT!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

It's a new day!

Five o'clock in the morning. I awake to take my best friend and roommate to the airport. He's moving on. To Los Angeles, California. To bigger and better things.

The days preceding his departure were rough. I managed to torture myself by listening to sad songs like "I'm Moving On" & "My Wish" by Rascal Flatts. Normally I do not partake in country music, but Rascal Flatts is one of his favorites. So I shed my sad tears, I said my goodbyes and off to LA he goes.

And stuck in Memphis I am.

I thought I would be more distraught than what I was. He'd been my roommate for almost four years. And yes I will miss him dearly, but I've decided to use his departure as a way to restart my life.

Obviously this blog is a new beginning. I'm going to use it as a way to track my new life. I hope, anyways. Sometimes I say I'm going to do something and I do begin it, but the majority of the time I don't stick it through.

So here's the deal.

This blog will be used as my thought process, progress and anything else that goes with the struggle of losing weight. I will *try* to post daily accounts of my failures, success, frustrations, etc., you know, the horrors of diet and exercise.

Pictures?

Sure, why not.

So where to begin... Well, when I got back from the airport around 6:45am, I made some cinnamon-sugar toast (2 pieces). I was starving. Then I went to bed for about 3 hours.

When I awoke, I drank a Slim Rite. Yes, that'd be a SLIM RITE. The Kroger version of Slim Fast.

What are my plans today? I'm going to clean up my roommate's room a bit more (calorie burner hello!) and then what I really SHOULD do, is go sign up for that gym I've been procrastinating over.

What I REALLY want to do is use part of my tax money and head down to Tunica. But I may save that for another day. It's midday, so I'll do a follow up post on how my day went and if i followed through with my so-called plans.